Never Want to Let You Go - a Janto Story

Ianto was worried. He'd never seen Jack so upset, so angry. He'd seen him irate and he'd even seen him snap, especially when Gwen was being stubborn. But after Gwen had stormed in refusing to Retcon Rhys, Jack had seemed livid. Ianto wasn't sure if he should follow when Jack stormed out, or if he should leave Jack alone to stew for a bit. Concern for Jack won over Ianto's wish to avoid an argument and he walked slowly over to Jack's office.

'Jack? Are you alright?' Ianto asked quietly. 

Jack looked up at him, but didn't say anything before turning away again.

'Jack,' Ianto said more forcefully, not taking well to being ignored like that. 'What's wrong?'

'Nothing,' Jack said tersely. 

'It is not "nothing",' Ianto walked over to Jack to put a hand on his shoulder. 'You're upset.'

'Of course,' Jack said quietly. 'Look at that.' He pointed to the CCTV footage of Gwen and Rhys walking away.

'Er… that's Gwen and Rhys,' Ianto stated the obvious. 'I… I don't see why they're anything to be upset about.'

'Of course they are,' Jack said as though it were obvious. 'Look at them… they've got each other. And I've got you… but it's not the same.'

'How so?' Ianto asked, hurt.

Jack looked up at Ianto, his eyes sad. 'They've got each other for the rest of their lives. They've got their lifetimes ahead of them… together. I… I can't look forward to that with you. I… can't grow old with you. I can't… Do you know how much that hurts?'

Ianto sighed. 'Well, Jack, life expectancy isn't exactly high in this line of work to begin with,' he said wryly. 

'Don't… don't say that,' Jack shook his head. 

'I'm only citing facts, Jack,' Ianto told him. 'You knew all about this before you started sexually harassing me,' he gave a weak smile.

'I couldn't not sexually harass you,' Jack's lips twitched. 

'You can't refrain from sexually harassing anyone,' Ianto rolled his eyes.

'I want this,' Jack admitted quietly. 'I want you. For the rest of my life. Forever. I wish there was a way to make it happen.'

'Well, barring divine intervention, I really don't see how you could go about that,' Ianto shrugged. 'Jack, I love you, I will always love you, and for as long as I can be, I will be here for you. But after that… I know you'll find yourself a new coffee boy and you'll forget all about me.'

'Never could forget you,' Jack smiled sadly. He reached up to pull Ianto's face down so he could kiss him. 'And I'll never want to. I am never going to want to let you go.'

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Just a little Janto set after the events of Meat.  I made myself sad, so I feel like spreading the sadness, because apparently I hate happiness and am an awful person. XD Hope you liked.